2011.

Inner Peace

2011-10-12T23:52:00.001+08:00

Learn to cherish. Learn to be self-sufficient. Learn to be less demanding of others. Treat others like how you want to be treated.

x

Act like a lady think like a boss.

2011-10-01T12:25:00.014+08:00

Bugis, Seoul Garden, shopping.

I love them girls :)

WHY SO MUCH SHIT. WHY.

2011-09-26T11:27:00.003+08:00

#1. STOP FRIGGIN ASKING ME FOR MONEY MONEY MONEY EVERY SINGLE TIME IM FRIGGIN STILL STUDYING IM 16+ 17 NOT A FUCKING WORKING FULL-TIME ADULT OK. AWESOME ENOUGH THAT YOU DONT GIVE US POCKET MONEY WHEN YOU SHOULD BE. AND DONT PULL KX INTO IT OK FOR FUCK SHOULD HE BE GIVING ME MONEY. YOU DIDNT RAISE ME TO BE A WHORE AND HE ISNT A SUGARDADDY. RESPECT.

#2. ITS ALREADY OVER SO FRIGGIN STOP HARPING ON IT WHEN YOU DONT EVEN KNOW THE WHOLE STORY AND DONT BOTHER TO FIND OUT SO STOP ACTING LIKE THE PEABRAIN IDIOTS YOU ALL ARE AND SHUT THE FUCK UP.

#3. I dont understand you. You dont understand me. Period.

I'm so fucking tired.

Just live your life

2011-09-03T10:23:00.001+08:00

AT BOYF'S NOW HE ANGRY AT ME I ASK HIM WHY HE SAY DUNNO LAH HAIS WHAT TO DO~

Hehe.

ola!

2011-09-02T12:20:00.005+08:00

Nose strip thingy I forced darling to try hahhaa.

H. O. L. I. D. A. Y. S.

Finally no more studying, no more guilt-ridden tv and comp sessions, well at least for 1.5 months. Yay yay hahahhahahhaa. Really really REALLY don't like studying. It's like trying to cram 4 months of school work into 3-4 days of revision. Crazy much much much.

Gonna go out with Mama later to get some last minute things for the 4D3N DTRM cruise. She lazy go out, keep watching tv, I also lazy go out, wanna use comp and nua, hahhaaha like mother like daughter.

I miss my boyfriend.

Lolololol ok got like 6298582645 pictures in my camera and bb not uploaded yet and not planning to upload soon (HAHA yes lazy genes again) sooooo yah lazy to blog already so I'm gonna ttyl and off to surf blogshops (dear don't kill me pls LOL) B Y E xoxo.

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OH YAH caught Smurfs yesterday with Kx at E!Hub. After forcing him to eat Subway for the 3rd consecutive day LOL. SooOOoooOOoo CUTE! Hahhahaha! And starting of the show, say 20-30minutes? The Cathay staff actually played the wrong movie and played Toy Story 3 (I think?) instead. But not bad got to watch it free hahaha it was funny. Tofu I ~~love~~smurf you!

2011-08-09T23:38:00.002+08:00

I'm tired.

Enough to deal with for today. I'm heading to bed.

2011-08-05T14:40:00.002+08:00

Short update while in Stats lecture. Falling asleep soon sigh.. Meeting love at Tampines later for Japanese omelette rice and maybe a movie. <3

Looking forward, miss you loads.

August.

2011-08-05T08:19:00.002+08:00

A couple of things happened the past few days...

Our 02 contestants <3

Won free toppings for Frolick yumz!

Presentation cum last DBE lesson :'(

Looking forward to the END of August. August will be damn crappy... 7th Month and CAs urgh. Major hate. Gotta start studying, I know Z E R O about Stats and MOB. Sigh.

Jenna don't be lazy!!

Disappointment.

2011-07-29T11:19:00.002+08:00

Hey. We all know that you're the one always shooting your mouth off, always commenting negative things on whatever's happening, always having critics about people and random things. We told you about it, laughed about it, you didn't change, okay we sucked it up and accepted you for who you are.

But I will not tolerate you directing your shit to me.

Yes, I asked for a favor. Yes, I know I'm not the only one having projects and everything. Yes I know that we're drifting apart because we're in different schools, not meeting up almost at all. Is it my fault? How could you have said what you said? If you had issues with me asking you for a favor, you could have just told me that you weren't happy with me being like that. Not calling me a B I T C H behind my back. Who's the bitch now huh.

I know you girls are busy too. I compromised to your schedules, because I am the one asking for a favor. I am thankful for having you girls to depend on when I need help. And I knew you girls would. But never did I expect this to happen, least from you. I don't know about you but I've always felt closest to you in our clique. Maybe because we have the same horoscope, we like the same things etc. This coming from you.. Seriously?

You know that if we switched places, I would definitely help you out, no questions asked. It was just a favor. I never wanted it to spoil our friendship like that. If I knew this would happen, I would not have sent that text to you.

Sigh. I don't know what else to say.

SHOPPING.

2011-07-29T09:36:00.004+08:00

Didn't sleep the previous night then gehkiang go shopping. Hahahaa see our eyebags.

Love you :>

This was.. Tuesday! Overdue yes lol lazy to blog. Bought something finally hahaha! Maybe take pictures of what I bought soon.

My phone's cocked up now. Can't text boyfriend sigh. I hate M1.

Pastamania.

2011-07-25T11:26:00.004+08:00

Went shopping with boyfriend last Monday at Bugis. Didn't buy anything(as usual LOL) but had Pastamania! I never dined at Pastamania before(yes I know, suaku, whatever) so boyfriend wanted to bring me there. So excited! Haha!

Yep. Going shopping with Kx tomorrow too. Hoooopefully we get something this time.

2011-07-19T12:47:00.001+08:00

I've tried so hard and got so far,

but in the end it doesn't even matter.

I miss...

2011-07-17T16:40:00.012+08:00

... Them.

This is Huimin, my super cute sweetheart. Hahahaa look at her! She very tall. 1.74m I think.

She like to diao people. HAHAHA.

See. Diao me.

Wahhh drink water.. Huimin so sexy! LOL!

She like camera shy hehe.

Sweetheart~

This is Annqi, the super duper violent girl. And the girl that sits beside me in 4E3. Don't see she so skinny ok, she pinch people DAMN. PAIN. Like a pubor. HAHA.

PROOF.

So pu.

We sit beside each other so always take picture in class hahahaha!

o.o

Don't act shy lah pubor!

Eat so much still so skinny! Tsk!

Hehehehe

This is Tessa. I think she's the auntiest and siaoest of us all! Hahaha! And my bbm partner whom I haven't bbmed for quite some time aww.

She also very tall. But not like SH like to diao people. She only give sotong face. HAHA.

What is this.......

Tess: "Eh Jenna I tell you ah....."

Jenna: *text text text text*

Tess: "Wahlao you not listening lor! Stupid bb!"

Jenna: *sigh* "Ok lah ok lah.."

Attempting the -__- face. Quite successful lololol.

*chat chat chat*

Tessa: "Hello? Hello?!"

Jenna: "Kns phone no reception."

Oooo nomz!

They always bully me lor. See I smile so big not because I happy okay.

Because....

... SHE PINCHING MY FATS. PINCH DAMN HARD. Hahaha!

See lah destroy my notebook also...

And my foolscap...

.... :(

Jenna: "Tsk. Don't want take picture with you."

Aww ^^ Too bad Huimin not in the picture.

Huimin: "Sigh.. They camwhoring AGAIN...."

Jenna: "CUPCAKE!" *nomz*

SOON OK? ♥

Miscellaneous.

2011-07-15T10:37:00.001+08:00

And you say you're not cute.

In lesson now.

2011-07-15T10:30:00.002+08:00

Can't concentrate in MOB, skipped PACC just now because I was late. Like super duper late an-hour-and-forty-five-minutes late. Have been skipping class quite often these few days.. I REFUSE TO MAKE IT A HABIT!! So next week, no skipping of classes Jenna. And the following week.. And the following week.. So on and so forth.

Not gonna work this weekend.. Will be interviewing people in town on Saturday for DBE project(like omg right) and probably go out with Mama on Sunday. Hmm. But I need cash. To pay my humongous phone bill, transport fees etc. Hate feeling reality crash down on me.

DBE project, Gen Ed project and MOB project coming up. Won't have much free time.. Jenna buck up buck up! You can pull through this.

The L word.

2011-07-11T23:49:00.002+08:00

Isn't love supposed to be loving someone for who he/she is?

Isn't love all about accepting?

Isn't love all about wanting the other party to be happy?

You say you love me. But it isn't like all these. So do you really? Or am I still too young to understand the L word.

Sick.

2011-07-11T11:42:00.002+08:00

Yes I'm sick, down with sore throat and coughing and my voice like a sexy now hahahaa! This happens everytime I'm having sore throat. Either something's wrong with my vocal chords or my inner male hormones are acting up. Hmm.

So sleepy.. Still gotta do DBE project after school later :( Sigh. Gonna be a loooong day..

Not coming to school tomorrow. Gonna go see a doctor and get MC.

2011-07-08T09:57:00.001+08:00

So tired. All I wanna do is to cuddle in your arms and drift off to sleep.

Tertio mense.

2011-07-07T23:45:00.004+08:00

He loves my nostrils. Hahahahaa :D

Went to find Marcus after his work at 8PM today. Supposed to go for dinner then head to Changi for a birthday chalet but going tomorrow instead so the boy's all mine today! Went to White Sands, had Subway and Mad Jack's for dinner. I had MJ's brownie with vanilla ice-cream topping omg delish max!!!! He had coffee(At 9PM? I know right siao.) and a burger with fries. Too bad he has work/I have school tomorrow + my curfew so couldn't spend more time together.. Missing you already sweet.

Like how you used to.

Long day tomorrow(8AM to 5PM) and I'll have to wake up at 5.45AM.. And I'm still here struggling with PACC tutorials and e-tutorials and BLOGGING. Really, Jenna?

Ok gonna get off blogspot and back to getting work done kthxbai ^^

Life.

2011-06-18T20:24:00.006+08:00

Its just work work work now, haven't started studying at all. This holiday really sucks. So little time with my lover boy, so little time for rest, so little time for everything. Sigh and gonna have DTRM camp this Monday to Tuesday, totally dreading it plus don't feel like going at all fml :( :(

Went to boyfriend's this morning for breakfast plus nua plus sent him to work since he's gonna be working till 10 today. And my curfew's 11PM. So can't meet him for dinner after work.. Aiya seriously shit the curfew. Haven't had curfew for 16years of my life and now this zz.

I gotta go pee bye.

You're different.

2011-06-03T11:14:00.002+08:00

♥

Lazy.

2011-05-30T23:23:00.003+08:00

Upload pictures yes no?

Trust?

2011-05-26T08:47:00.002+08:00

I don't know what to do.. Its like I can only continue to do what I promised, believing that you would not forsake me.. That you would not disappoint. But what if I'm losing faith? What if I can't do it as firmly as before? What if I'm having doubts? What am I supposed to do..?

Heartache.

All by myself.

2011-05-24T03:42:00.002+08:00

That silly boy went into camp last night, will only be out on Thursday. Meeting every single day.. How am I supposed to get used to it? :(

School's ok, if you don't count the project part. Even if school ends at 2 or 3PM still have to stay in school till, say, 6 or 7? Just to do project. Damn. Tiring. And such a killjoy. Workload is supposed to be manageable, but thanks to work and certain *ahem* distractions, I have to chiong homework every Sunday night after work. If I'm lazy, procrastinate, drag till Monday or Tuesday and then I want to die. This is my life right now.. Pretty suckballz if you ask me but with you around its all good :)

Ok and now you're in camp.

My life officially sucks.

DTRMO2!

2011-05-05T08:25:00.005+08:00

In class now! Yihui's complaining that I haven't been blogging recently so HERE IT IS! :) That silly cute girl sitting beside me now in MOB tutorial hahhaa. So boring.

We're supposed to do this CA thing using a balloon, plastic bag, 7 straws, masking tape and cotton wool etc to build a "nest" to protect an egg. God knws what he's gonna do to the egg lol we just have to make sure the stupid bloody egg doesn't crack.

Eating a lot recently!!!!!! Like super. Time to diet + exercise more.

Ok have to go back to lessons now tata! :D

I miss my stupid pubors :(

In love.

2011-04-18T17:07:00.003+08:00

Today's the first day of school. Wasn't that bad.. Just kinda not used to it. Supposed to reach school at 9am today. There are 20 people in 02, and almost everyone was late hahhaa! Didn't plan it but 18 of us ended up waiting for Carol at SB foyer, with only Joyce in the classroom. 02 is damn cute I swear o m g.

There is homework on the first day of school. Still can't believe it.

Really hope tomorrow's pw gets scraped. Pleasepleasepleaseplease!!!!! Fingers crossed.

Start over.

2011-04-12T22:49:00.002+08:00

I like it when we're laughing together, bullshitting around about everything. Not quarreling, not having stupid tiffs.

Went for orientation today! It was fun running around and doing the stations. Really hope to bond with o2. They seem like nice people :)

Supposed to end at 6 but ended at 4.30pm instead.. So Kaixiong was still quite far from Dover. Met him at Outram instead and headed to Vivo lol like super random? But random fun moments are the most memorable. :)

Really tired, waiting for him to be done with his shower and off to bed! SPICE training tomorrow, heard it's a waste of time. Hahhahaha.

Your super big hugs.

2011-04-11T22:47:00.004+08:00

Just reached home. Thanks sweet for sending me home :)

1st day of orientation today. Kinda boring.. Just sitting in the lecture hall and hearing the lecturers talk. Boo hopefully tomorrow will be better. In a dilemma though.. Sigh forget it. But after today I'm sort of looking forward to school already. Wonder how poly life will be like, wonder if I can cope. Countless what ifs.

Don't wanna think so much, as girlfriend said, everything just go with the flow. See where it takes you.

I won't change will I?

Hopefully not.

Busy busy week. And then next week lessons will start already. Won't be able to meet up every day like how it is now.. Not mentally prepared at all.

Me plus you.

2011-04-09T10:21:00.004+08:00

These few days have been.. Full of new "information". And because of these "information", my opinions of people change. They aren't who they seem to be anymore. You really can't judge a book by its cover. Hmm.

Supposed to be at camp now but overslept! Alarm didn't ring, no idea why. But its better, actually. Still have documents to photocopy and send in by 11th April, and paperwork here and there.. If I go for the camp have to rush like a madwoman. See lah Jenna, everything last minute then do. Zz. Yeah another bonus, can go for Desmond's BBQ tonight!! Haven't met up with 4E3 since chalet, I think. Aww :(

I miss you already. No idea how to survive without you when school starts.. Sigh.

Brain dead now, really tired. Done with checking the orientation schedule, shall nap for a bit before heading out.

Let go.

2011-04-07T00:07:00.003+08:00

Went down to SP again today to configure laptop. It took so, fucking, long. If I was by myself its ok, but Marcus had to wait for me outside the room the whole time, felt really guilty. Thanks :)

Then chiong down to Compass's Swensen's to have dinner with family. Celebrating Jessica's 22nd birthday early. Super duper awkward.. Ate dinner in silence. But on the way home Papa Toh talked to me :> After so long!!!! Have been having this stupid cold war thing with him since the start of 2011 I think? Finally.

Sorry girlfriend, couldn't accompany you at chalet today. See you tomorrow! ♥

Ying's coming back in a week's time. Miss that woman to bits, hopefully will have time to accompany her.

Heading down to Downtown East tomorrow morning. Mixed feelings..

Preparing for the worst.

2011-04-05T02:49:00.003+08:00

I want to tell everyone that you're mine. Tell them to back off 'cuz you're taken. But no, its not like that with us. Someone better, more suitable for you may come along. Then I'll just have to face reality and be glad that at one point of time, you were almost mine.

For now, I can only cherish every second that we have together, cherish you. No more pointless tiffs. Just you, me and cookie dough.

Straight through my heart.

2011-04-04T23:30:00.002+08:00

Getting more and more reliant on you. What would I do without you..?

Sigh.

Trying really hard not to "switch on" the emotional side of Jenna these few days. Trying really hard to maintain the heck care attitude. Trying really hard not to think too much. So difficult.

Don't wanna make any promises.. What if things change? The situation now is already so unfair to you. Every single time you treat me well I'll feel so freaking guilty.. Ugh.

Don't know what to do........... Oh no.

Moving on.

2011-04-01T10:07:00.002+08:00

Its APRIL.

Uh oh.

Status quo.

2011-03-30T11:56:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was damn. Fun. Met up with Hazel girlfriend, Fendy, Yipmun Swie En and Gabby Babby at Marcus's. While waiting for girlfriend and Fendy Ang we played a few rounds of HK mahjong first. Won 3.50$ hahhaa! Then Water Game to "hydrate" us for cycling later. Got 3 Kings and kena sabo by Yipmun. Everyone super bloated with water after that! Laughed like crazy. :>

Cycled to Changi to have dinner and went by the beach.

Hazel: Got swing leh!!!!

Me: Eh go go go go!!!

Us: SWIE EN!!!!!!!!

Hahahaha damn fun. While we were happily swinging away the poor guys were getting bitten by ants. Found a pavilion, sat down and shared ghost stories. 11+pm at Changi Beach. Siao liao, I damn freaked out.

On the way back to Pasir Ris girlfriend fell from her bike 'cuz she saw !@#$%^&* don't want say and everyone just chiong there except me and Swie En stuck to our bikes. It was almost 12. Lightning everywhere. Ulu road. We just had a ghost story-telling session. It didn't feel good.. Sigh ok don't talk about it lol.

Went back to Marcus's, showered and wanted to play Water Game again but Yipmun Swie En fell asleep while waiting for me to finish showering. So 5 of us just squeezed into Kaixiong's bed and watch Shutter. Slept at 5, planned to wake at 6 to rush home but woke at 7+ instead. Uhhhh ohhhh so guilty. Didn't accompany Mama Toh to her check up :( Sorry!!!

Yep sooo meeting her at 1.45pm at Novena instead to go to NSC for my monthly jabs. Have to go shower now tata!

No pictures except some of me and Kaixiong. Always forget to take pictures on these super fun occasions! :<

Would you think of me?

2011-03-25T12:43:00.003+08:00

The famous Mama Toh and me :)

Fatin, my forever alone friend.

Hazeltantan GIRLFRIENDDDD!

As I said on twitter, got my SP student admission card a few days back. I need a freaking reality check. Jenna Toh, Triple W isn't your life. It won't be like this forever. There's still school to attend, projects to complete, a totally different life out there waiting for you.

But I just can't let go. Triple W means a lot to me. They mean a lot to me. It isn't just work. They aren't just colleagues. Even I myself can't comprehend the importance of them to me.

O M G.

I know I'll make new friends, join new cliques once school starts. But it's just SCARY, ok? So used to this. Now. Them. ARGGGHHH have totally no idea what I'm talking about.

Time won't wait for you, Jenna Toh. It's time to get your priorities right and step the fuck back in to reality. Playtime's almost over.

Now wonder they say reality sucks. Cuz it really does. Big time.

Miss you much.

2011-03-16T17:41:00.002+08:00

Gonna go shower in a bit, read then head down to Tampines to meet Marcus. Then to Fatin's chalet :) Life's revolving around WWW these few weeks. I like. Don't want anything to change.. But its impossible. School is starting really soon (I don't even know the exact date omg fail.) and everything will change. I hate change. I'll miss them.

Edwind said to me that 90% of the girls he knows change when they go into poly. For the better? For the worse? No idea.

I'm really scared.

I really don't get you.

2011-03-13T22:41:00.001+08:00

Just what do you want from me exactly. Play out your cards, I don't like playing guessing games.

11th.

2011-03-11T04:17:00.002+08:00

Don't know what I'm doing.

Went back to the place where it ended. Walked home in the rain.

I don't know what I'm doing.

舍不得----弦子

2011-03-09T12:56:00.003+08:00

第一次你陪我坐着 我的手心是空空的

我知道那些简讯声你努力藏着 还怕我难过

不追问到底为什么 是我最后的温柔

想笑着附和说分开是好的  但我们却怎么 一起哭了

我舍不得 可是时间回不去了

爱你很值得 只是该停了  没有我你要好好的

我舍不得 最后一次抱紧你了

我们错过的 错了就错了  不用担心我 我不爱你了

至少你记忆里的我 是微笑的  亲爱的

有你牵着我的那些日子  真的好快乐

我舍不得 可是时间回不去了

爱你很值得 只是该停了  没有我你要好好的

我舍不得 最后一次抱紧你了

我们错过的 错了就错了  不用担心我

我走了

Fuck it.

2011-03-08T13:40:00.002+08:00

Another day when I feel like just sewing up my mouth and shutting up forever.

Whatever, going out now bye.

Surprise.

2011-03-06T17:56:00.002+08:00

Missing this violent Scorpio. Hahhaha.

Have no idea where to go later.. I want to talk to them, but I want to talk to you more. How??!?!

Hate having to make choices.

Confusing much.

2011-03-05T00:09:00.000+08:00

You're being really contradicting you know that?

Sunday!

2011-03-04T08:49:00.003+08:00

This post is specially for Tessa Ho Jia Yi my sexy pubor who stalks my blog!! Hahahaha!!

See even when vandalising my notebook also look so sexy!

HAHAHA so nice of me right. Tess say my blog very emo, so this must be a happy post for her. I still thought nobody come read my blog one lor, then she love me so much then stalk me and find my blog. HEHEHEHE.

I want Sunday to be successful leh!! I miss you all!!!!! Especially that HM. Oh I saw HM yesterday at Whitesands and squeeze her stomach HAHA. Maybe that's why she lai ang. Aiya should'nt have squeezed her lor tsk.

Must bbm me more!! Then I will be happy!!!!!

Let's find hamsum boyfriend together hahaha! This picture now my bb wallpaper, TOUCHED RIGHT. Hahahahhaa ok love you byebye.

Reminiscing.

2011-03-03T14:18:00.003+08:00

I miss us.

I thought I was so used to being alone. But now.. Why can't I get used to not having you around?

Got B&J's yesterday at Vivo and went up to the sun deck. Like how we used to. Looking past Sentosa, thought of you and couldn't stop crying. I miss your hugs. I miss how you wiped away my tears every time I'm feeling under the weather. I miss the no link debates we always have. I miss you.

But there isn't any space for regrets. Its better for you this way.

Be strong, Jenna. The worst will pass.

To-do list.

2011-03-03T06:40:00.002+08:00

1. Take passport sized photo for poly registration.

2. Head to the library WITH THE LIBRARY CARD and get some books.

3. Sleep early. Early day tomorrow.

Lightsticks make me happy.

2011-03-02T22:04:00.004+08:00

So sick of love songs, so tired of tears.

I just want to be happy. Why is it so difficult?

A new beginning.

2011-03-02T04:21:00.005+08:00

Just got home from Marcus's for mahjong session. Didn't join in poker with them, suddenly felt really sian, no idea why :/ Mood swings oh no.

Seriously have to stock up on antacids. Gastric so frequently, so uncomfortable ):

Most probably not working till Saturday. Aww I'll miss Triple W. TIME FOR A TRIP TO THE LIBRARY JENNA TOH. Be honest with yourself, how long has it been since the last time you properly read a book?

Horrible.

Wanna go tanning at Sentosa again. Whole body like painting sia, tan so uneven thanks to work. U G L Y .

Broken promises.

2011-03-01T13:44:00.002+08:00

I can only apologize.

Thanks for the memories even though they weren't so great.

2011-02-28T09:17:00.002+08:00

Saw a rainbow and a blue sun at work the other day. But when I took off my shades they were gone, rainbow and all.

I kept my shades on.

Even if I'm with a big group of people,

2011-02-26T00:21:00.001+08:00

I still feel alone.

Work tomorrow.

2011-02-23T23:33:00.000+08:00

Goodnight.

Listen.

2011-02-23T11:19:00.002+08:00

Toh Xin Hui Jenna. I allow you to cry. I allow you to be pathetic. I allow you to blame yourself for things that aren't in your control. But after your tears have dried, after a good night's sleep, I expect you to get hold of yourself and live your life again.

You know you deserve more than that.

Triple W.

2011-02-23T10:22:00.001+08:00

Now you know why I love my job.

Guilt, guilt, guilt.

2011-02-23T00:10:00.001+08:00

Haven't cried this hard for so long. Wonder if I can pull through this ordeal. Forgive me.

Thanks Fendy, for the listening ear.

Don't want to get all emotional and sad in front of anyone anymore. So fucking selfish.

Gorgeous.

2011-02-20T23:42:00.003+08:00

I'm so tired, pooped out from work. Gonna make this a quick entry and off to bed. Eyelids soooo heeeaaavy..

Worked from 12 to 8 today. Actually is 2.30 to 8, but swapped with Aniq so I start at 12 he start at 2.30. Supposed to go meet Ivy and co. for a short meeting before work but no one informed me of anything so didn't go ._. Saw Joanne at the bus stop while waiting for 89! MISSED HER SO MUCH OMG but didn't really have anything to talk about so it was a teeeny little bit awkward lol.

Lifeguards had training today and I held the "Lifeguards in Training" board up while they were doing it, like weird only. Was very very extremely tempted to go for E&A after that though. Being a lifeguard is so much more meaningful than a crew! BUT OMFG THE TENSION.. I cannot tahan being in tense situations. Panic attacks are no joke ok. Tsk.

Yep and an hour before closing a group of angmoh kids, all girls, came to Slide Up. They didn't have energy to carry the float up so I did it for them. TIRING OK. Not only once, carried the float up twice for them and carried it down like countless times. Fucking shag. But the looks on their faces when they came down made it all worth it.

I love happy little girls. They can be so beautiful.

Closing shower blah blah went for dinner with Aniq, Marcus, Karim and Wynn. Had fishball noodles yum. But was so shag didn't go to Val's house for her birthday celebration. Felt so guilty omg. Sorry x.x

Yeap. I'm all alone in the living room now. Like scary only.

Can't get you out of my mind.

2011-02-20T00:49:00.003+08:00

Sooooo laaaaaazy to upload pictures. Super alot pictures in camera but Facebook and blog dead. Uh oh Jenna time for you to start uploading those overdue pictures.

I love work. I miss Triple W already. Oh no.

Blah lappie's batt gonna die soon goodnight.

Work tomorrow.

Not in the mood for jokes.

2011-02-03T00:34:00.003+08:00

Am I too easy-going? Am I such a fucking pushover?

Why do people expect me to just accept and laugh off whatever crap they're throwing at me? Fucking open your eyes and take a good look. I am only human. I have feelings too. I AM JUST A GIRL. Stop taking my tolerance for granted. Stop treating me as if my heart's made of titanium.

What an awesome Chinese New Year.

Guess.

2011-02-01T23:25:00.001+08:00

Jenna Toh just keep your mouth shut. No one will think you're dumb.

Worthless bitch.

Sorry love.

2011-01-28T12:22:00.000+08:00

Caught the flu bug. Not happy about it.

Purpleberry.

2011-01-27T23:33:00.004+08:00

So dissatisfied with my new keyboard. So freaking HARD to type!! ): But the colour's so pretty..

Went for my jabs today. Happy max! Doc said that my keloids were responding VERY well to the jabs and today will be the last compulsory appointment(NURSE ONLY JABBED ONCE!) and next month will be up to me to decide if I need the jab or not. Y A Y . No more needles. Uh uh (:

Packed my table just now and brought the comp to the room, charger and all. Jenna Toh! Must learn how to maintain!!!!!

I feel fat nowadays. Must. Diet. I told Teming that I MUST be 43kg by CNY. I can't do it TT not with the amount of food I'm downing recently. Omtg.

So many things to say, so lazy to type. My neck hurts ): Bye.

Wondering.

2011-01-25T01:14:00.002+08:00

I'm so afraid.

Afraid that I would change. Afraid of how things may turn out. Afraid of myself.

Help.

Bitch much.